yes, i have found that out.
the happier i am, the more i eat.
and it aint healthy either.
i did not have pizza today,
but i did have fries and a cookie.
and then a lot of hummus...
and its only 2 pm.
this is why wednesday is my nap day.
but i have soooo many tests tomorrow.
i feel like my stomache has doubled in size,
a trip to the gym for the first time in months is definitely necessary.
my mother is a complete bitch,
i just hear her voice and my good mood plummets,
literally, down the fucking drain into hell.
thats how far my mood drops.
1.5 more years, 1.5 more years!
i have found that i do better on fasts when theyre unofficial,
and i dont tell you.
but my next on will be longer than the last... so 42 hours?
i may be sleeping over at my friends house on friday,
and so it will be until then. (:
i dont know why in hell im in a good mood,
i just stuffed my body with all this shit,
and i still am.
people keep asking me if im on drugs,
and im like nooo! im just happpeeeyyyy!
ugh, is it bad that i want to be sad again so i can just stop eating?
probably, but oh well. this is my life.
also, after the 800 i had yesterday i was very surprised to see a loss this morning.
but after today thats never gonna hold.
hahahahaha. fuck. me.
p.s. might be starting my fast at 12am 11/9 not officially though.