although i havent slept i decided to fuck it and weigh myself.
DUHN DUHN DDUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUHN.
last time i ate was 530 am.
and i had the other half of my dinner.
im thinking for the rest of today i have.... 500 cal?
that sounds good.
and lots of water.
that way when i weigh myself tomorrow i wont want to kill myself.
i gained 3 pounds from my birthday excursion.
and the only person i can blame is myself.
ugh. im disgusted with myself.
and to make it worse.
yesterday my mom said...
you know over the course of this fall break.
[[i had a break this week.]]
your cheeks have gotten bigger.
NEXT GOAL IS FOR HALLOWEEN.
in exactly 5 weeks is all hallows eve.
i will weigh myself tomorrow and see what i have to work with.
i would like to be at least 140 by then.
if not, lower.
either 140 or 8 pounds, whichever is lower tomorrow.