Saturday, June 16, 2012

white nights.

ive been reading wintergirls again. the sweet words approach my heart as i fall back into this familiar place i had lost for quite some time.

im in st. peterburg. the whole city is a walking museum. its lovely. yesterday, i went on a very irritating bus tour. but today, after chilling in bed for most of the day, my parents and i walked a couple hours just around the city. let me know if you want to see picture. i have quite a few. (:

i binged last night. after not eating all day, my brain just shut off and the next thing i know im stuffing my face with a bunch of random shit. but i exercised last night for the first time in ages, and i was sore all day. -_- literally my entire body hurts. but its okay. all i ate was breakfast this morning which totaled to +100 and from walking im assuming its around -400. so i feel a little better about yesterdays screw up.

another reason i havent eaten all day... this new boy, i think i should finally give him a name so... his name is louis. he pretty much mentionned that he hadnt eaten all day and then goes on to say that its been 2 days since he's eaten. and my fucked up head takes that as a challenge. so i dont think ill be eating for a while... this boy doesnt eat or sleep for days, and doesnt even think about it. like, i wish i was strong enough not to have to think about these things constantly.

tea makes everything better. 

<3 stay lovely.

p.s. it doesnt get dark here. its nice. i've been hiding in the dark for too long.


  1. I've been reading wintergirls too!

  2. I love that book. Can't read re-read it like I do her other books though. It's not very good reading for attempted recovery... :/

    That's crazy it doesn't get dark! I know there are places with 24 hour days and nights depending on the time of year, but it's still nuts. I don't know if I could handle all-day sun. 24 hour night no problem, but 24 hours of daylight and I think I'd kill someone.

    Hope you're having a marvelous time over there! Good luck with the new boy. ;)