ive been reading wintergirls again. the sweet words approach my heart as i fall back into this familiar place i had lost for quite some time.
im in st. peterburg. the whole city is a walking museum. its lovely. yesterday, i went on a very irritating bus tour. but today, after chilling in bed for most of the day, my parents and i walked a couple hours just around the city. let me know if you want to see picture. i have quite a few. (:
i binged last night. after not eating all day, my brain just shut off and the next thing i know im stuffing my face with a bunch of random shit. but i exercised last night for the first time in ages, and i was sore all day. -_- literally my entire body hurts. but its okay. all i ate was breakfast this morning which totaled to +100 and from walking im assuming its around -400. so i feel a little better about yesterdays screw up.
another reason i havent eaten all day... this new boy, i think i should finally give him a name so... his name is louis. he pretty much mentionned that he hadnt eaten all day and then goes on to say that its been 2 days since he's eaten. and my fucked up head takes that as a challenge. so i dont think ill be eating for a while... this boy doesnt eat or sleep for days, and doesnt even think about it. like, i wish i was strong enough not to have to think about these things constantly.
tea makes everything better.
<3 stay lovely.
p.s. it doesnt get dark here. its nice. i've been hiding in the dark for too long.
im in st. peterburg. the whole city is a walking museum. its lovely. yesterday, i went on a very irritating bus tour. but today, after chilling in bed for most of the day, my parents and i walked a couple hours just around the city. let me know if you want to see picture. i have quite a few. (:
i binged last night. after not eating all day, my brain just shut off and the next thing i know im stuffing my face with a bunch of random shit. but i exercised last night for the first time in ages, and i was sore all day. -_- literally my entire body hurts. but its okay. all i ate was breakfast this morning which totaled to +100 and from walking im assuming its around -400. so i feel a little better about yesterdays screw up.
another reason i havent eaten all day... this new boy, i think i should finally give him a name so... his name is louis. he pretty much mentionned that he hadnt eaten all day and then goes on to say that its been 2 days since he's eaten. and my fucked up head takes that as a challenge. so i dont think ill be eating for a while... this boy doesnt eat or sleep for days, and doesnt even think about it. like, i wish i was strong enough not to have to think about these things constantly.
tea makes everything better.
<3 stay lovely.
p.s. it doesnt get dark here. its nice. i've been hiding in the dark for too long.
I've been reading wintergirls too!
ReplyDeleteI love that book. Can't read re-read it like I do her other books though. It's not very good reading for attempted recovery... :/
ReplyDeleteThat's crazy it doesn't get dark! I know there are places with 24 hour days and nights depending on the time of year, but it's still nuts. I don't know if I could handle all-day sun. 24 hour night no problem, but 24 hours of daylight and I think I'd kill someone.
Hope you're having a marvelous time over there! Good luck with the new boy. ;)
xoxo