Saturday, June 2, 2012

i think im ready for change.

I know it's been a while, but I have changed so much. I find the need within me to not eat. The past week has gone with mostly less than one meal a day. which is really awesome since ive gained so much back.

i leave for russia on june fifth and ill be back on july fourth. 

im welcoming change and happiness in my life, even as i enter this path of well self destruction if i do it right. 

and with this a propose a scenario im in. three boys like me. my boyfriend of six months, someone ive deeply friend zoned and someone who recently told me of their feelings. All of these people have like me for a long period, and i dont know what to do. im not happy with my life right now, and i want to be. im tired of being sad. so im welcoming everything i receive from this. and i wont do anything rash, but simply i feel will make me feel better.

and on numbers, i think i lost 6 pounds so far this week, AND im really bloaty because i just did some funnnystuff. hehe.

of anyone is out there listening, let me know, please. id love to talk to you. 

stay lovely.


  1. it's been a while for myself too, you would remember my old username (Xo-glass-slippers-oX)
    I am back! I haven't been reading since like January
    But I am reading to read all of your lovely blogs darling!!!
    Why aren't you happy love?! What have you been doing since april!?
    Jealous that you A. Lost 6lbs this week and B. you are going to Russia! I can't wait to go in the future

    Been missing ur blogs while i was AWOL/MIA! x

  2. I'm back too. Let's do it girl. You have all the power to make yourself happy!