well, since coming back to america, most of my life has gone to complete shit... go figure.
.... well not all of it, but yeah.
ive gotten smaller, i think. but ive gotten into eating a bunch at one time then not eating again or eating a bunch at one time again... like once i start i dont have a stopper. im working on it though.
i think im dating three people at one time right now, sorta. i dont know, i think i just like the attention, i guess. but two of them claim to love me and i like the other one more than those two. its very confusing. i dont love much anymore.
i got robbed at gunpoint but this stupid fuck i was dealing to a couple days ago. and i think ive been going insane. i drink too often, cut too frequently, smoke too many cigs, am constantly high, i smoked molly for three days in a row which made my head hurt so bad this morning i literally couldnt get out of bed. i havent really been doing many other drugs but i just havent really been in contact much.
my mom crashed her car yesterday and i looked at bills for college a couple days ago which depressed the fuck out of me.
i cant feel many emotions anymore. i can only cry when im shitfaced. and i mess everything up.
i have no money anymore because my friends owe me a total of 3 grand and that guy robbed me of a little over a grand.
well, now that im done complaining, let me try to think of something fun and fabulous to say.
derp. i seriously just sat staring at the screen and around my room for a couple minutes and couldnt think of anything. i really need to start weighing myself., maybe ill do that tomorrow. and ill try to read more of your blogs, i just try to stay away from my house most of the time because i feel so oppressed and miserable and worthless here.
IM SORRY FOR ALL THE COMPLAINING. HAPPY VIBES.
.... well not all of it, but yeah.
ive gotten smaller, i think. but ive gotten into eating a bunch at one time then not eating again or eating a bunch at one time again... like once i start i dont have a stopper. im working on it though.
i think im dating three people at one time right now, sorta. i dont know, i think i just like the attention, i guess. but two of them claim to love me and i like the other one more than those two. its very confusing. i dont love much anymore.
i got robbed at gunpoint but this stupid fuck i was dealing to a couple days ago. and i think ive been going insane. i drink too often, cut too frequently, smoke too many cigs, am constantly high, i smoked molly for three days in a row which made my head hurt so bad this morning i literally couldnt get out of bed. i havent really been doing many other drugs but i just havent really been in contact much.
my mom crashed her car yesterday and i looked at bills for college a couple days ago which depressed the fuck out of me.
i cant feel many emotions anymore. i can only cry when im shitfaced. and i mess everything up.
i have no money anymore because my friends owe me a total of 3 grand and that guy robbed me of a little over a grand.
well, now that im done complaining, let me try to think of something fun and fabulous to say.
derp. i seriously just sat staring at the screen and around my room for a couple minutes and couldnt think of anything. i really need to start weighing myself., maybe ill do that tomorrow. and ill try to read more of your blogs, i just try to stay away from my house most of the time because i feel so oppressed and miserable and worthless here.
IM SORRY FOR ALL THE COMPLAINING. HAPPY VIBES.
